Surrendering All

Posted by Christian St John in Faithblogs | 2 comments

“Going a little farther, he fell with his face to the ground and prayed, “My Father, if it is possible, may this cup be taken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will.”" Matthew 26:39

Note: I want to start this Faithblog by saying a big THANK YOU to those of you who have prayed for me over the last few weeks. For the past week or so I had felt like I had been sideswiped by our old enemy the devil, but know this, your prayers were not in vain, as you shall read below.

Life’s a funny thing for the Christian. We often say we want God’s will to be realized in our lives, but all too often we don’t mean the words we speak. Sure we might believe what we have said, “Your will be done”, but the question is do we fully and unreservedly give ourselves over to His will? Is there still a little we are holding back?

This morning I found myself in a dark garden crying out to our Father in Heaven to show some grace and mercy. The Spirit revealed to me that Jesus was once in a similar place (only His dark garden experience was far worse than mine). I was reminded that even though Jesus had sweated drops of blood due to the incredible anxiety and fear He must have been feeling He ultimately surrendered to His Father’s will.

With this playing around in my head I looked Heavenward and holding nothing back said, “Father, your will be done in my life.” And I meant it; I held nothing back. Within a short space of time peace started to flood into my heart and the anxious feeling I had had for some time now was gone. My mind, that had lately been a mess of confusion and frustration, began to clear allowing me to think straight again. And I have no doubt that the Spirit of God shut up the mouths of the devils that had been whispering their lies and confusion into my mind and told them to take a hike. I cannot tell you how releaved I was that the God of Heaven had heard my words and made me whole again, giving me the strength to step into His will once again.

I feel great! I feel like a new person, like a new and improved Chris. Like the metaphor goes, I feel like I have been carrying around a backpack filled with bricks and now the backpack is gone. Praise God. And again thank you for your prayers… know that they played a major part in my healing.

Now onto what God has in store for me…

Blessings in Him!
Chris
May, 2010